Catalyst Gaming members and Ex-Members of OC need to read this.

[.:KFrohman:.]

Some of you may have been aware of a recent conversation I had with Cupland. If you are, then you may know what this is about. If not, read on.

I know I've been a gigantic faggot lately, what with the whole OCRP debacle, but this is not just about that.
I'm going to list all the mistakes I've made. While I'll make the effort to ensure they are to their fullness, I cannot guarantee I have listed them all.

Let's start.
Orange Cosmos - The stupid shit I did.

• Abusing my powers
• Banning for stupid reasons
• Being a general dick
• The "Jamaica" Incident
• Attacking OC, eventually causing its' demise.
• Not being as useful as I could/should have been
• Not taking a break from the work
• Begging
• Being a needy cunt
• Misunderstanding my peers in certain situations
• Being a dick to Moonraise
• Causing disruption to the general populace of the community with my actions.

Catalyst Gaming

• Attacking the server over a small incident that got the better of me
• Being a dick to certain people (again)
• Causing disruption to the general populace of the community with my actions.
• Attempting to sell OCRP, and all the drama that spawned from that.

There are probably more things that need to be listed, but at this time, I cannot remember/recall/bring them to my mind for whatever reason.

Catalyst Gaming members, Ex-OC community members, what you see above is a list of all the mistakes I made and regret. I am sorry. For all of that. I'm not blaming anyone but myself.

I do not expect you to accept me into the community again, nor do I expect you to accept this, but let it be known that this is the guilt and regret of a guy who's caused a lot of grief, yet suffered some as a result. That is all.

Once again, I apologise.

[JF]

Tbh you'll never regain my trust. Idk what it is about you, but you must enjoy doing these things or you wouldn't do them. You've hurt many people, cause so much greif and destroyed a community with 18,000 members. So tell us all Kaz, Why the hell do you do it?

[Christopher Jay]

Touching, I forgive you. It's not that you're disruptive, etc; it's just that you need more "self-control."

[.:KFrohman:.]

Tbh you'll never regain my trust. Idk what it is about you, but you must enjoy doing these things or you wouldn't do them. You've hurt many people, cause so much greif and destroyed a community with 18,000 members. So tell us all Kaz, Why the hell do you do it?

You're going to have to elaborate. Which bit exactly?

[chunkeymonkey79]

I like you Kaz. You're a good Unit in HL2RP, and you never abused your power there. I never thought you would do crap like this. I'm half and half on how I feel about you. Sorry.

[JF]

Tbh you'll never regain my trust. Idk what it is about you, but you must enjoy doing these things or you wouldn't do them. You've hurt many people, cause so much greif and destroyed a community with 18,000 members. So tell us all Kaz, Why the hell do you do it?

You're going to have to elaborate. Which bit exactly?

Everything that you posted. Why did you do those things?

I mean, im really trying to understand what motivates you to do these things.

[Adam S]

I never hold a grudge against people, But whatever triggers you to do this stupid stuff is what questions me, Kax. 

[Darthkatzs]

You're turning into PK, trying to manipulate people like this.
People must not know you at all if they think you really care.

[.:KFrohman:.]

Everything that you posted. Why did you do those things?

Many reasons, I'm relying on you to put them to the list.

I've always been a bit power hungry. To be better than the rest. Whether that stems from autism or as a result of my poor track record in primary and middle school I do not know.

Managing my anger has been a bit of an issue. It's more of an issue when you're given the tools to completely ruin things.

As time went on, I've become more tense in a way, where even small things might just set me off haywire.

Sometimes I mis-understood people, or they mis-understood me.

More recently, I've been making decisions that have not been fully thought out, but then again, it's something I've often done. Normally, in a situation, I just go with what happens to be the quickest or simplest option to deal with it, without thinking through properly.


I hope that answers your question.

You're turning into PK, trying to manipulate people like this.
People must not know you at all if they think you really care.

Thanks for making me doubt my own thoughts. Wanna go ahead and close the thread while you're at it?

[JF]

Everything that you posted. Why did you do those things?

Many reasons, I'm relying on you to put them to the list.

I've always been a bit power hungry. To be better than the rest. Whether that stems from autism or as a result of my poor track record in primary and middle school I do not know.

Managing my anger has been a bit of an issue. It's more of an issue when you're given the tools to completely ruin things.

As time went on, I've become more tense in a way, where even small things might just set me off haywire.

Sometimes I mis-understood people, or they mis-understood me.

More recently, I've been making decisions that have not been fully thought out, but then again, it's something I've often done. Normally, in a situation, I just go with what happens to be the quickest or simplest option to deal with it, without thinking through properly.


I hope that answers your question.

One last question. Do you enjoy it?

[.:KFrohman:.]

It gave me some relief from whatever the situation was at the time, but the aftereffects would always come back on me. So yes and no.

You're turning into PK, trying to manipulate people like this.
People must not know you at all if they think you really care.

To add, let's think for a moment. If I didn't care, would I have gone to the effort of doing this? Would I really have asked waffle to unban me from here just so I could post?

[Rory]

You really pissed me off back in OC... and idk if i can still go through that discussion... many things happened to me and it just ruined the fun...

[Darthkatzs]

It gave me some relief from whatever the situation was at the time, but the aftereffects would always come back on me. So yes and no.

You're turning into PK, trying to manipulate people like this.
People must not know you at all if they think you really care.

To add, let's think for a moment. If I didn't care, would I have gone to the effort of doing this? Would I really have asked waffle to unban me from here just so I could post?

Yeah, cause nobody wants to talk to you anymore and you're hoping that this could get you unbanned from the server. And there's nowhere else for you to go.

[Rory]

Kaz... the consequences are given... we can't just give it back... because you need to learn to not do this shit...

[.:KFrohman:.]

Yeah, cause nobody wants to talk to you anymore and you're hoping that this could get you unbanned from the server. And there's nowhere else for you to go.

I was informed roughly by sabo that people didn't want to talk to me on the basis I never apologised for my actions, hence the thread.
Nice pointing out the obvious - Of course that's something I'd like, but the chances of that actually happening are slim, hence why I never mentioned it until now.

Kaz... the consequences are given... we can't just give it back... because you need to learn to not do this shit...

Read the last few lines. I never expected for that to happen.