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Title: The Chronicles of RTLK
Post by: Scratchie on September 06, 2011, 12:31:29 AM
So, as you can see.  I am a regular member with no additional ranks and a nice big banned under my name.

Congratulations, CG.  You made me get to the point where I honestly only had three choices, and this is the least destructive.  The following people are to thank:

Adam S
Everyone else who posted in the retar complaint.

Know that while this may be how it is, more likely than not I will be back and reclaim what I took from myself.

Let me share a little story with you...


There once was a gamer.  Lets call him KLTR for now.  He was an administrator of a large gaming community that eventually died.  In order to keep up the legacy of the community, he decided to revive the game and begin working on it as well.  He had a team of people helping him so that it would be good and able to have more done in a shorter time.  But that's past where we are needing to be.

Flash back a few months.  KLTR was addicted to the game.  So much so that  he skipped school, let his grades drop, and refused to sleep for days on end.  This eventually caught up with him and one day he was driving home from school (on a day he actually went) and began to zone out.  He began to hallucinate that he was in the game driving.  At the last second he snapped back into reality before he lost control of the car.  He was driving 40 miles an hour and if he would not have snapped out of it when he did, he would have continued going 40 right into a brick wall and died.  After this episode, he decided to take a break, but was unable to hold himself to it.

Flash forward to his growing community.  He partnered with someone who began to annoy him and go behind his back.  Not being able to control himself due to the lack of any sort of break that he needed from before, he snapped.  The community died after he snapped due to him shutting everything off.

Flash forward 6 months.  No gaming at all and actually enjoying life is what KLTR was doing.  He decided to get back into gaming but only with a few friends in Borderlands.  This led to him joining a new community that was similar to the original one he was in.  As with before, he became administrator, but he remembered to not do it as much.  Staying as just an administrator, he continued to play until the community was shut down because of the owners wanting to pursue life instead of virtual life.  Nothing as with before happened, just another short break where KLTR enjoyed life some more.

Another couple months later saw KLTR joining a community running the same game as the last community he was in.  He played, and as with this story, became an administrator.  The community had another game he had never played much due to it not being his style, but he joined again and began to enjoy it more and more.  Soon, the new game became what he stuck around for.  He became a developer for the community and also a Super Administrator after some amount of time.  He had never been this high except when he was owner, so he cherished the position.  Eventually, he came to an agreement with the owner of the community and became lead developer and ran the day to day operations of the community.

He let this position get to his head partially, more than he should have, but he did not realize it.  Contrary to the belief of the community, he acquired the position he holds in the game not due to his position but due to the need and his knowledge and ability.  He began to reform the game and optimize it so that it could be better for the communitys use.  Eventually a rock tumbled down and caused an avalanche that caused people to regard him as someone who was power hungry and took advantage of his position too much.  While it was partially true, the context of it was being taken way out of proportion.

Eventually it snowballed into an even bigger situation where KLTR was faced with a problem that had three solutions.

Solution one was the easiest, but also the hardest for KLTR.  It was simple.  Reasons stemming from both the game and real life have caused him problems in the past to the point of suicidal thoughts, but never acted on.  KLTR always knows that this is a possibility but will never do so because he values life too much.

Solution two was the worst, causing total destruction.  He thought about it for a split second, dropping the idea almost instantaneously.  He would not let what he had worked on for a while die due to him being in the wrong mindset.

Solution three was the one he chose.  He would force a break on himself.  He removed himself from all forms of power, made it so he couldn't join the game for a period of time, and watched as people made assumptions.


Yes, this is my story (which should be blatantly obvious), for those of you who have not known me long enough:
Community 1: Pulsar Effect
Community 2: Venatus Defero
Community 3: Orange Cosmos
Community 4: Here.
Title: Re: The Chronicles of RTLK
Post by: Pielolz on September 06, 2011, 12:35:33 AM
I-I never knew it got that bad.. I'm sorry for my blatant accusations and such..
Title: Re: The Chronicles of RTLK
Post by: Darkshifter98 on September 06, 2011, 12:36:29 AM
Well RTLK, Personally, I thought you were a good Admin with some flaws. But we all have flaws don't we? So I'm just going to keep this short for now and say that you were a good adminstator. I hope to see you soon.
-Dark
Title: Re: The Chronicles of RTLK
Post by: Scratchie on September 06, 2011, 12:38:38 AM
I will say that this will not be permanent, I just need a break.  I'm not loosing anything, still have my access and stuff, just made a wall blocking me from it for a while.
Title: Re: The Chronicles of RTLK
Post by: Darkshifter98 on September 06, 2011, 12:40:41 AM
Its a good idea to take breaks every now and then. I'll have to play a little less because of school.
Title: Re: The Chronicles of RTLK
Post by: RKSSmithno13 on September 06, 2011, 12:41:56 AM
NO.
SADFACE.
Seriously though, I just start playing on catalyst and you leave me? T-T
Enjoy your break. Just remember now you have no stress relief from sitting in a hospital for 8 hours guarding an elevator.
Title: Re: The Chronicles of RTLK
Post by: vFear? on September 06, 2011, 12:42:59 AM
o7 RTLK
Title: Re: The Chronicles of RTLK
Post by: putin on September 06, 2011, 12:46:47 AM
i hope u do better
Title: Re: The Chronicles of RTLK
Post by: Retro on September 06, 2011, 01:42:25 AM
Moral of the story, don't be a dick.
Title: Re: The Chronicles of RTLK
Post by: Eclipse on September 06, 2011, 04:47:26 AM
Karma, this is the problem you always had, and you have always tried to fix it, but it always came back, no matter how hard you tried.
Title: Re: The Chronicles of RTLK
Post by: Nicknero on September 06, 2011, 04:55:40 AM
It's sad to see people leave, or take a temporarily break because of their problem.
I hope this will do you good Karma, and I hope to see you back and improved soon enough.
Title: Re: The Chronicles of RTLK
Post by: aeiou on September 06, 2011, 06:00:48 AM
o/


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Title: Re: The Chronicles of RTLK
Post by: Anzu on September 06, 2011, 06:29:43 AM
Even though its just temporary.. See you when i see you, its been nice having you around and i hope your problems gets solved. Good luck on whatever, Karma.
Title: Re: The Chronicles of RTLK
Post by: Ducky on September 06, 2011, 06:34:44 AM
my face right now.. see you in a bit, RTLK
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Title: Re: The Chronicles of RTLK
Post by: lemonshit on September 06, 2011, 07:00:11 AM
I know we act like friends (Well I was hoping that we were friends [and still are]) but I too, noticed the change in you. I saw that when you had Admin, you took respect for what you did... But I actually decided to look at you, once you got Overlord, and I saw that you started to do things regular admins, even superadmins wouldn't do (Breaking rules, giving yourself ranks in HL2RP). I don't want you to go, I would like for you to remain (super?) admin...Just please remove the Overlord rank.
Title: Re: The Chronicles of RTLK
Post by: TheKrusader on September 06, 2011, 07:41:29 AM
I've always considered you a good person/administrator. But as Dark said, we all have flaws. I personally think a break will do you good, and I hope to see you around.

Sincerely,
      The Krusader
Title: Re: The Chronicles of RTLK
Post by: JF on September 06, 2011, 08:02:55 AM
Man, i didn't realise shit was so bad with your personal life and here at CG.

I hope to see you again soon RTLK, cause it honestly won't be the same without you.
Title: Re: The Chronicles of RTLK
Post by: Krisrules on September 06, 2011, 08:27:30 AM
I forgot how the saying goes but it was something about getting knocked off your horse and getting back on it. :)

Hope to see you soon matey.
Title: Re: The Chronicles of RTLK
Post by: Crap-Head on September 06, 2011, 09:00:36 AM
Fuck bro.

Totally unexpected.

Good luck with life and hopefully you will return here again sometime!
Title: Re: The Chronicles of RTLK
Post by: GeeMayn on September 06, 2011, 09:30:06 AM
RTLK, are you REALLY gonna pull the teenage girl move with the "EVRYWUN HAETTS ME!!!!!!!!!"?


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Title: Re: The Chronicles of RTLK
Post by: Yimmy The Cat on September 06, 2011, 09:48:52 AM
Quote from: GeeMayn on September 06, 2011, 09:30:06 AM
RTLK, are you REALLY gonna pull the teenage girl move with the "EVRYWUN HAETTS ME!!!!!!!!!"?
Are you really gonna pull the Bad-ass person who thinks that he can make fun of someoen when everyone eles is felling bad, hoping to get as much fucking atttention as possible?
Title: Re: The Chronicles of RTLK
Post by: SkeptiK on September 06, 2011, 10:08:17 AM
Settle it down girls, woulden't want to lock this thread due to flamming. Also RTLK, I believe you a good person/admin and respect you for what you have done and most choices you have made were reasonable and understandable. But only a few instances, in which had occured, such as me trying to explain certain things to you as how OTA runs and you fucking shoot a combine ball at my ass, as I was trying to help some people get in correct formation. And the thing with soviet, but they are the only two things which I believe you had made a mistake, but hey we all do.

Other then that, you have been a cool guy to work with and I will miss you on your departure. However, if/when you come back, try to understand the communitys point of view. Try and form yourself into something that will please the community, hopefully making yourself happy in the process. I've experianced many power hungry people in my time of playing HL2RP and titles do get to their heads, but most come from average members/admins who are simply fallen victim of the temptation of power. Anways that is just what I wanted to say, and wish you the best of luck with your life and future.  ;)
Title: Re: The Chronicles of RTLK
Post by: Martinerrr on September 06, 2011, 10:31:23 AM
Quote from: jimmygamer on September 06, 2011, 09:48:52 AM
Quote from: GeeMayn on September 06, 2011, 09:30:06 AM
RTLK, are you REALLY gonna pull the teenage girl move with the "EVRYWUN HAETTS ME!!!!!!!!!"?
Are you really gonna pull the Bad-ass person who thinks that he can make fun of someoen when everyone eles is felling bad, hoping to get as much fucking atttention as possible?
Well, I don't like what he said no,
But at least he is the first who doesn't suck up and say like, "Geez Karma you're so cool. I'm sorry."
They all know something was wrong, they all know why he took the break, and they also know.
He will be back.
Title: Re: The Chronicles of RTLK
Post by: Rictalspace on September 06, 2011, 11:16:03 AM
I hope to see you soon RTLK, i understand what its like to have everyone asking for you, obviously not in proportion of your current situation, but i wish you luck in this leave of absence and hope you return better than ever.
- Rictal
Title: Re: The Chronicles of RTLK
Post by: S?cojnr on September 06, 2011, 01:10:29 PM
I think you should see someone proffesional if a game is driving you to thinking of commiting suicide because that is crazy.

I would advise you to get rid of your pc and stay far away from gaming for a long while. Very long.
Title: Re: The Chronicles of RTLK
Post by: Scratchie on September 06, 2011, 04:54:09 PM
Quote from: Kiwiee on September 06, 2011, 02:11:59 PM
Its not very often someone has the guts to do what you did.
I wish I could sometimes, but im getting there, slowly.

A proud Kiwieewhore.

PS. You could have at least accepted my CCA app before you dun did this. :/ (lol,jk?)

<3
Title: Re: The Chronicles of RTLK
Post by: Doxy on September 06, 2011, 06:55:34 PM
Shit just got serious.

Well I don't really know you very well RTLK but when I see you around I have no problem with you. (maybe except ur throwing cars around)

Good luck.
Title: It's in your hands, Karma.
Post by: ??. McBullet on September 06, 2011, 08:37:44 PM
Quote from: Eclipse on September 06, 2011, 04:47:26 AM
Karma, this is the problem you always had, and you have always tried to fix it, but it always came back, no matter how hard you tried.

I don't mean to come off like an ass in any way, but I think the "Overlord" rank and anything else that has assisted in the screwups to be removed. If the power got to your head the way you describe it, you need to delete the rank and continue as a SuperAdmin.

I'll take Adam for example.

(No offense Adam) Have you noticed that he left CG, returned a bit later, but the same problems returned because he got a similar position to the one he lost?
 
Honestly, by the story, you should give yourself more than a break. I've been there with the whole break thing. What you really need is a reevaluation of yourself. You should go through what caused you to mess up and try to correct yourself accordingly. If you just give yourself a break and come back with the same things that made you get to this point, the break would have been for nothing.

Karma, I'm sorry for what happened, but hopefully you'll use it as a way to improve rather than just a refresher. I'd hate to see this recur (again) and this is your chance to finally break the cycle.

Hopefully I was able to be more constructive than a "sorry to hear the shit hit the fan hope you get better soon" post. I really hope you take this into consideration in order to better yourself.

If you can handle the more assertive version of this, open the spoiler...

Karma, you need to understand that people don't change by taking a few weeks' break. You're just making excuses for yourself. As you have written yourself, you haven't really addressed the factors that have really been causing your problems and your inner pain. You have blamed it on the most convenient excuse out there..."you simply need a break and things will be better"... Karma, you know damn well that things will not be better by simply getting some rest. Things will not change unless you seriously think hard about personal factors that contributed to past failures. You need to muster up the strength to admit the real problem. Addicts tend to have a better time recovering when they admit to who they have become based on the mistakes they have made.

Karma, I'll admit that I am a computer addict. I have suffered from low self-esteem issues and constantly victimised myself. I saw the virtual world as the easy way out. I'm not afraid to admit it. It all started when I was 13.

I had made the same excuses and even one point contemplated suicide myself. I thought a break would help, and I abstained from video games for a few days. Sure, rest does heal a conscience, but not one that is still under the influence of a full fledged addiction. The guiltiness I had from getting myself into avoidable danger due to video games was gone. The first thing I did that day was boot up my computer and start it all again. The cycle continued for a full year. And I hadn't improved one bit.

I'm 15 now and I can honestly say that I'm beginning to improve by focusing on school studies and blocking out my usage of video games during weekdays. I'm improving mentally, physically, and socially through school, social clubs, and my newer passion, Taekwondo. I am finally developing the willpower I lacked in the past to truly take control of my gaming urges. You can too.

Look, you don't seem very proud of who you've become. You and I both know that you're not going to get anywhere if you continue to make excuses for yourself. I want to see you improve upon yourself permanently. If you come back and screw up the same way, the time you spent away from the computer (and the time you spent typing up that sad letter) would have been all for nothing.

RTLK, you need to pull yourself together. Nobody can do that for you but.....you. If you don't want to fail yourself again, then you have to make an honest effort. No more of this unfulfilled break bullcrap. It's all in your hands, so do the right thing.
Title: Re: The Chronicles of RTLK
Post by: Rory on September 06, 2011, 09:30:19 PM
First i'm going to say telling us about your personal life is really a thing you should keep to yourself. Making a thread on leaving the community anyways is against the rules anyways.

Also Karma, it's not that nobody likes you, it's the fact that you have made so many mistakes thinking because you are an "Overlord", you can do so much shit that affects other people and angers them at the community. You have real life things to take care of and things to improve on, come back when your ready, but i don't recommend being a big ol' boss in the community. It doesn't help and doesn't effect the community any better...
Title: Re: The Chronicles of RTLK
Post by: YankeeSamurai on September 06, 2011, 09:38:03 PM
hey BB, you should go into counseling
Title: Re: The Chronicles of RTLK
Post by: Somone77 on September 07, 2011, 12:51:45 AM
Oh look! A poor me thread! RTLK is gay.

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Title: Re: The Chronicles of RTLK
Post by: Scratchie on September 07, 2011, 02:20:54 AM
Rule 1 Trevor. It still applies.
Title: Re: The Chronicles of RTLK
Post by: Ducky on September 07, 2011, 06:56:24 AM
Quote from: Somone77 on September 07, 2011, 12:51:45 AM
Oh look! A poor me thread! RTLK is gay.

awwwwwwww yeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah
Title: Re: The Chronicles of RTLK
Post by: Fishy on September 07, 2011, 07:28:25 AM
Quote from: Rory Phillips on September 06, 2011, 09:30:19 PM
First i'm going to say telling us about your personal life is really a thing you should keep to yourself. Making a thread on leaving the community anyways is against the rules anyways.

Also Karma, it's not that nobody likes you, it's the fact that you have made so many mistakes thinking because you are an "Overlord", you can do so much shit that affects other people and angers them at the community. You have real life things to take care of and things to improve on, come back when your ready, but i don't recommend being a big ol' boss in the community. It doesn't help and doesn't effect the community any better...

21. You need owner authorization to make a thread about leaving the community due to the mass amounts of drama they cause in most cases.

Seeing as this thread has got 3 pages of replies, I'd assume it's been authorized.
Title: Re: The Chronicles of RTLK
Post by: Penguin on September 07, 2011, 04:45:52 PM
This seems like a world of warcraft rehab story. But anyway dont let this go to your head suicide is not the way out! I never really talked to you on a personal level, but theres people out there that have it worse than you. Are your do you have a place to live, you have a computer, you can sure as hell develope a gamemode, Now turn that frown  :'( upside down  :D! I uderstadn that its hard and shit but I learned from all my mistakes in former communitys and this one that with power comes responsibility, now go have a cookie big fella  ;D.
Title: Re: The Chronicles of RTLK
Post by: Adam S on September 07, 2011, 05:06:35 PM
You know Karma,  You were a very ok guy.  I always looked up to you on OC and wanted to eventually prove myself by becoming a DJ But OC died..  On CG was the same thing, i was greatful of your work (And CWU Flags) until the point you decided to call yourself "Overlord".  I really think you went over your head then.  Like me, i didn't know it was affecting others and only cared about my own passion on doing stuff.  Yes i know, you probably hate me for the major complaining i caused, and not to mention the aggravation i mightve caused.

All in all, like i did. I had a "break" from CG, i learned some about myself and now im back.  I learned that everything wasnt for me or it revolved around me (Even tho BB claims i learned nothing). Honestly tho i still look up to you,  but not as much as i did in OC or around when i joined CG.  Like me, you made bad mistakes.  And rather than listen to the truth about them continued to do them. But you know, were not perfect.  Were only human and we will have to live with our mistakes. 

Your mistakes clouded our views about you rather than looking at the work you did.  Your work if anything was great, we got what we needed to function up untill the end.  I look forward to you coming back and maybe you will have learned something about friendship too. Also thanks for fixing the problem i was having on the forums, really shows even tho you left that you will comeback and help when its needed.  Shows dedication but again, your mistakes clouded your dedication.

About your personal life and almost ramming into a wall going 80 cause you zoned out,  i dont get how people get "too" addicted to gaming, well i was before to the point i almost failed the 6-7th grade.  But i try to do it as a hobby and to keep me from being depressed.  I do have issues also, Ive almost made bad mistakes.  Were all human, we just gotta learn to admit and forgive.

Your faithful student,
Adam S
Title: Re: The Chronicles of RTLK
Post by: ??. McBullet on September 14, 2011, 03:09:46 PM
It seems Karma has been back on steam even though he's still on a "break" from video games...

Karma: If you're going to ignore the letter I sent to you, then so be it. I am honestly starting to believe this was all just a way for people to drop the allegations against you for your messups...

I seriously hope you didn't fake this entire thing just so people would begin to feel sorry for you... I'm not sorry for you at all. You've got a problem you need to fix and you're still avoiding the real issue. You're letting your addiction win constantly and that's not a quality that should earn respect from anyone! Please, cut the crap and deal with your issues.

In a similar tone as my last post...I guess the community can expect the second coming of Karma, the Overlord Aboose Apocalypse...because nothing will permanently change. Sure, you might feel like you're cured... but a long-term computer addiction can't be solved by a week or two of "rest". You're still addicted and you know it.

What pains me even more is that a very small percentage of the active community populace seems to realize this as well. WAKE UP!

Title: Re: The Chronicles of RTLK
Post by: Martinerrr on September 14, 2011, 04:31:45 PM
BB,

He might actually just change, you haven't seen him play yet.
I know that people are actually able to change, whether it's conscious or their sub-conscious.
Title: Re: The Chronicles of RTLK
Post by: Scratchie on September 14, 2011, 04:35:26 PM
Does my rank say overlord?  No?

Then shut it.
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