My depression is getting bad, really really bad...

These past two weeks have been an absolute hell inside my mind, it races, it spins, it operates so fast my thoughts cant process... There's so much going through my head I just feel like i'm trapped in an inescapable cloud of hopelessness. every moment i'm bombarded with thought after thought of what I can and cant do, my situations that are going on, memories of friends or people i want to be friends with... just... everything...

Ive been feeling increasingly lonely, people I try and try to become friends with seem to never respond or just don't seem very interested in being friends with me... I feel ignored and hated from it, and like there's no point in me trying and failing anymore, because it seems as if i'll never win, never succeed... never have true friends. I have been manipulated, made fun of, betrayed, outcast, and treated like absolute shit my ENTIRE life. I don't even know what I do.. people will turn from someone I consider a good friend to a complete asshole out of nowhere, showing sudden and large disinterest in ever speaking to me again... People will NEVER tell me when I ask what I did so i won't do it anymore... What do I even do? I'm as nice as a person could be, a loyal friend who wont betray trust or give away secrets, i'm completely open and will not judge, no matter what the person says... I put other peoples happiness over my own, and will always do my best to cheer a person up, no matter how upset or depressed I myself am feeling. Am I too clingy? Do other people NOT enjoy talking daily to friends? Am I just a social idiot who cant understand things? It drives me crazy.... I think about it every day and i cannot figure it out! A lifetime full of being socially out-casted by people, taken advantage of for their kindness and willingness to share, being stabbed in the back and betrayed by the people who you considered your best friends time and time again... Its lead to me developing an EXTREMELY bad social paranoia where... I regard everything I do as wrong, My self esteem is as low as a persons can go, i consider myself one of the worst people to be around... because its how i've been treated my entire life. I CONSTANTLY worry, more than anything else, that the few people who I do consider my friend at the time and are actually willing to talk to me will suddenly up and leave, not wanting to do anything with me in the future... im always worrying that I will do something that makes them mad at me or lessens their opinion of me... To sum it up, I am basically paranoid about being hated by my friends. I have never been in a relationship before, where I know being in one would help me.. a lot. I feel like i never WILL be in one because I am too shy to ask a girl out due to fear of rejection, so my mind has been waiting until I KNOW the girl will say yes before I do ask... but Nobody has ever told me that they would be willing to... except for one, who said they would if they didn't live halfway across the world. I don't even care how far they are anymore, I just need SOMEONE... Someone I know I can trust and that htey can trust me, and that I know they care for once...

I feel absolutely hopeless in life from all this... I have an asshole dad who yells at me daily with extreme anger management problems and an over-controlling ego. He assumes he knows everything about me and whats wrong with me when he doesn't even have a clue based on how he acts... And hes even caused me to be sent to a mental hospital because of a particularly bad fight where he persisted and persisted and was constantly yelling at me four almost two hour... where I was pushed past the edge and threatened to kill myself if he didn't stop. My family acts like they hate me, except for my grandparents and my mom. I can't go to my grandparents for emotional things, as they are unable to help for reasons I would rather not explain right now. Mostly because i don't know exactly HOW I could explain it. The only person I CAN go to is my Mom, who is currently homeless, and has had her phone taken away.. so I have no contact with her expect for the once every week or so she stops by to say hi. I have been unable to find a good therapist for over a year now, every one Ive gone too either caring only about money or being unable to see me as much as i need to be seen (Thank Kaiser for that). Overall, I feel like the options for me anymore are dwindling further and further away.

I have really been fighting for the will to simply live anymore, It takes me hours every day to force my body to get up, I've been increasingly lazy when it comes to cleaning up after myself (Which drives me crazy because I want to, but cant force my body to, And being a bit of a neat freak and organization freak I am it really isn't a good combo.) I'm honestly to the point where I'm just starting to give up on life, if things don't change soon i'm not sure whats going to happen. I honestly am starting to lose any will left that I still have to fight with, where I want to just take the easy way out... and the seemingly only way out. I need help, I truly do, but the only way I can be helped anymore is by people being there and being good friends, ones I can talk to daily and get along with... and ones that are willing to support and help me, willing to let me vent and just be there for me like I am to all of my friends... And to be in a relationship... but... I'm not sure if that will ever happen... Because it seems any girl that I like and try to actually get the will to ask out gets in a relationship days later... I'm not sure if it's bad luck on my part or just the world toying with me. It all just seems so far fetched to even hope for anymore...

Long story short, I need help, and fast. i'm losing the will to live and fight anymore, and am seriously getting close to ultimately giving up. It's a wonder i've even lasted this long so far...

The friend she was staying with kicked her out today, so my mom is now having to sleep in her car... and she has three dogs

My dead island is crashing about two minutes into the game, or just on the startup screen, where the red waves go across, usually I can get in and start a game though, how do I stop the freezing?

Also, when I start the game up, my right earphone has a REALLY loud staticfied noise of whatever is going through the left that is raping my eardrums and I need to fix it ASAP

FIXED

New: Dead Island will NOT save for some reason, any help?

Ok, so, I want to form a party on here to go into Dungeon Siege to do the ENTIRE campaign in coop

I want a party of at LEAST 4 members, up to 8

For those of you who don't know what Dungeon Siege is, its a dungeon crawler game that is VERY long, VERY fun, and just overall great

If you don't know what a dungeon crawler is, dungeon siege is similar to fate (but 10000 times better) or (only in the way of movement and how the maps are laid out) Neverwinter Nights 2.

Teamwork will be vital, we will be working together, as a TEAM.

If you want to join the party, just reply in this thread here

Current Party Members

1. Name: LoNeDeStRoYeR
    Play style: Warrior (Sword and shield)
2. Name: Hoplite
    Play style: Archer
3. Name: Tomasas
    Play style: Offensive Mage
4. Name: Teh Caek
    Play style: Defensive Mage
5. Name: Acornman
    Play Style: Undecided


Play styles:

The different play styles are basically your class in the game, but the game does not have classes. This will be a pre-determination of what items and skills you will be using during the game, and what items will be given to you by the other party members to support the total effectiveness of the party.

Basic Play styles:

Warrior: The sword fighters of the group, they are given the heaviest armor to use, and will use either one handed swords with shields, or two handed swords for maximum damage.  They will also have the most health potions, and will always go in first to attract the enemy. The warriors will the the brute force of the enemy attacks, and will be the ones to be knocked unconscious the most.

Archer: The ranged members of the group, they will be given medium strength armor that requires high dexterity so they can use their bows to full effectiveness. They will user bows and crossbows, or any throwing weapon in general. They will also carry a basic melee weapons for emergencies.  They will be given less health potions, and will go in after warriors, as they will be expected to not be attacked as often.

Mages: The mages have three basic types of classes, but all of them will be given a low amount of health potions, they will be wearing light armor or cloth armor, and will have a very basic melee weapon designed for mages.
Offensive Mage: These mages are the ones who focus entirely on combat spells, these guys will dish out the most damage to the enemy, and will be valuable in taking down the strongest of enemies. They will have the strongest combative spells.
Defensive Mage: These mages are the healers and protectors of the group, they will have the most powerful defensive spells, and will be the ones who resurrect and heal the injured group members during and outside of combat. They will have the most powerful defensive spells.
Mixed Mage: The mixed mage combines offensive and defensive spells to be a jack of all trades in the art of magic. These guys wont have quite the strongest spells of either form, but will be able to attack AND defend party members with magic, these can be very valuable in a small party. They will have medium strength spells of offense and defense.

Advanced Play styles:



If you have a play style not said in the basic play styles, then just type out your play style, what items you use, and what skills, and give it a name. Ill add it to the advanced play style list.

Items:

Items will be given to party members based on what the item does and which party member will have the best use for it. Gold will be determined in the game for who needs it and why, and party members are expected to donate gold to the ones in need for important items.

We will be doing the first Dungeon Siege campaign, then Legends of Aranna (the expansion) then we will move to the second games campaign and its expansion (Broken Worlds)

Feel free to discuss the game here, and I'm hoping some of you will join the party so we can have fun and do this campaign together!

Also note that if you don't have the game, i can give you a torrent file for it.

We will be using GameRanger to host the game!

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Sooo, I felt like making a intro thread, so hi again everyone!

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Well, my life is completely changing, on Monday, I got into a HUGE fight with my dad, in which my step-mom called the police and gave them a false report that I attacked me dad with a knife (which i didn't). Because of that, the police stuck me in a mental hospital for homicidal maniacs for two days. I am finally out... but there is a lot going on, I now have to be supervised at all times by an adult, my dad and step-mom are getting a divorce, my sister is moving out because she thinks im a "danger" and I am now going to be forced into part-day hospitalization because of a false police report. My life is going to hell.